This is not the first time I blog but this is the first post for this brand new blog I have just created on Wix (had been using Blogger in the past). I have been blogging for a few years since 2012 and owned two blogs: Personal blog & Confessions of An Environmental Student. After being idle for a few months, I decided that I need a fresh start for my blogging journey, just like having a new perspective towards the life I am having now. I found that we cannot separate the roles of a person into different isolated compartments because, after all, I am a single individual, my ideologies will affect every aspect of my life on how I think and how I react to happenings around me. Thus, I would like to present this first post that you read with an introduction of myself (in case you did not know me or did not follow my previous blogs).
My name is Xiwen Yeoh, a 22-year-old soon-to-be final year university student taking Bachelor of Environmental Science and Technology in Universiti Putra Malaysia, coming from a humble town called Nibong Tebal in Penang. Well you might be wondering what's up with the name of this blog, I just want to have a special name that people will rarely use and Lunaticus sounds Latin (and in fact it is Latin) with a hint of craziness in it. In fact, life is crazy for me. There are too much compassion and empathy in my feelings that I often feel restless seeing various kind of injustice going on around me (manage to ignore it after years of practice). I have principles that might sound stupidly unnecessary and 'strict' to many people, but they are the elements in my personalities that make me who I am here. These principles are what I hold on to in my life, they might be burdens but they are burdens worth carrying, the purposes of my life.
Firstly, I am an environmentalist. Being an environmental student does not make me an environmentalist because there is no pressure in this general society for you to go green, but I choose to be as environmental friendly as possible because obviously it is the right thing to do for a greater good. Secondly, I am a newborn vegan who is currently learning and adapting to this way of lifestyle. I do not do this solely because for the sake of my health (of course hopefully it can improve my immunity), but because of love towards all the innocent living beings out there. Veganism is still something strange in Malaysia and for sure I will have quite some struggling at this stage, but I believe that I can go through this. Thirdly, I am a psycho. Ok I am kidding, I am suffering from anxiety problems since long time ago without realising it until the breakdown that happened at the end of year 2015. I am glad that it happened, as it made me realise that I am having this problem and I can finally face it in order to heal from this mental illness. Being a psycho in this country is strange as well, the awareness on mental health of the society is not high but I am sure I can survive this long road of recovery. Finally, I am a Christian who believe in the one and only God, the Creator of this world. I am not born in a Christian family and this is difficult due to cultural traditions and pressure from family. I became a Christian in the December of 2012 but I have not yet been baptised because of....reasons. Ok that issue doesn't matter for now, but cultural belief sometimes really can drive me mad and Christianity, to me, is the Truth for the past, present, and future.
Since this is the first post, I should not elaborate too much or else I would not be able to finish it, ever. This will be the new start, and I will not link anything back to my previous two blogs. The two blogs are still view-able but there will be no update. I do not want to delete them because they are the prove of what I have done or thought about in the past, it would be a waste to throw history into the recycling bin. Let me end this post with another photo of butterflies~ Cheers~
